We had our doctors appointment yesterday...NOT my finest moments :-). I hurt, my hips feel like they are seperating from the very joints they are meant to occupy, and I am having more and more intense contractions with each passing day...I say this to preface that when I went in to the doctor's office yesterday, I truly thought we would have made a little headway in our journey towards having a baby...apparently NOT the case!
(I would also like to interject that the following is ALL the doctors fault...I mean, if I wouldn't have had it planted in my head that he might come early and then have them say "OK, he's great - get back to normal and he can come whenever he wants to!" I NEVER would have gotten so excited to see him at a earlier date than we originally thought!)
NOW, all that being said...we go in to see Dr. Holliman, and I am subjected to another exam only to be told that my child is still ALL the way down in +1 position but I STILL have not dialated AT ALL! So I get up from this painful experience, get dressed leave the doctors office and am so upset I start to CRY in the parking lot of the doctors office! It was a combination of all the building excitment and just being so ready and both of us being so excited that the time might be getting near only to hear that we are really not near this blessed event at all. I called my mom and she helped talk me off the ledge on my way home :-). I needed to hear I WASN'T crazy...she chuckled at me and reminded me that she knew exactly what I was feeling and that a year from now it won't matter WHEN he comes.
My hormones seemed to subside and after much prayer last night and this morning, I am feeling much better. I know I have been praying for weeks for Ty to join us in God's time (but in my heart I was really wanting it to be convenient to me as well :-). I'm letting go and now we're gonna have some fun...I'm telling everyone to place bets because clearly NONE of us know when this little one is coming! The ladies at my office are all taking their days and I'm gonna start a post so everyone can see the bets...we're gonna enjoy these last few weeks and laugh every time someone else is wrong about when this child is joining us...clearly, he has a mind of his own :-).
SO, place your bets and to my friends with children, if you so choose to tell me I'm not COMPLETELY crazy, I'll greatly appreciate it! :-) I am reminded of one of Marie's blog posts before little Libby came along. She said people would call her office and say "Have you not had that baby yet?" and she wanted to strangle them! I feel the same now :-)! I have been so irritable and hormonal and honestly...I'm just ready to have my sanity back...whatever sanity I had that is :-). And from now on, I am focusing on the positive, I have been blessed with a very easy pregnancy, I have a healthy baby boy and I am OFF bed rest...I'm going to focus on enjoying these last few weeks of special time with my wonderful husband! Much love to all (and hope you all got a good chuckle out of this :-).
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It's totally normal to hope for an early arrival, but don't put all your stock in it, since, like you are experiencing, you can be disappointed. I was convinced Finn would come early, but my due date came and went without event. Just keep reminding yourself that Ty is still inside growing and developing. You are totally not in control of things, which is a good lesson for people like you and me to start learning (finally!). Good luck in the next few weeks. Enjoy them. Life after Ty will be even better, but enjoy these weeks with Tyler; you don't want to wish them away.
ReplyDeleteP.S. When I went to the hospital for labor, I was not dilated at all. Zero. My water had broken and I had had contractions for a week, but no dilation. So, dilation isn't the end all be all. He could come early or late no matter how dilated you are. That's the beauty (and curse) of labor!
Oh - and my guess...I'll go with March 7 since you aren't going to allow late guesses. :) I have a theory that because you were practically going to have him several weeks ago and things got better, he's now decided he's going to come late.
Dude...I wrote a novel. Maybe I should have just emailed you. :)
Lindsi- I didn't even have a reason to hope that Libby would arrive early - and yet of course, I did! I think that is completely normal. Even if not "completely" normal, you're still not crazy! And if you think you're crazy now, wait til Ty arrives! Hahahaha. Just know that you can feel free to call me ANY time with questions or jsut to chat with someone else who's going through it, too!
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